I've got a lot on my mind, which probably comes at no surprise. 2015 has been a very difficult year, come to think of it.
The way it happens, it kind of goes like this. Something bad happens to someone you love. That's where it begins, someone you care about goes through something terrible. And you do your best to try to heal that, but it's not enough. When things go bad for someone you care about, nothing you do or say can really fix it. You can heal just a little bit, but that's all any one person can do.
And then... more bad news happens. And with this bad news, it's not just something sudden you can't do anything about, it's something long-lasting that you can't do anything about. It tests your feelings, and it tests your faith, and yet you can't do anything. It's 100% up to a higher power or another human being to nail down and figure out.
Life gets more complicated. The sudden and long-lasting things both are taken care of correctly, which is awesome. But then there are the after effects, which are unpredictable and no one's sure of.
While all this is going on, in the background someone is creating problems and trying to make everything worse for other people you love.
Remember my A/C going out? That was just a mess in the middle... always more to come.
Because sometimes you work hard for someone and they blow you off anyway. When things got hard in the family, the work folks decided to throw me out. Like a bum.
And then troublemaking shit showed up.
And it has been absolute hell for the last 48 hours.
And tomorrow's Monday.
